Apparently there is crying in Crossfit

I've decided not to weigh or measure myself because my main goal is to become healthy and strong, and to deal with my emotional issues. So, I'm trying to stay away from the scale and base my success on how I feel. So far things are good. Thursday was an incredibly stressful day at work. I totally could have used a work out, but my body was VERY SORE! You know, it's the kind where you can't even sit on the toilet. My best friends have been tiger balm, ibuprofen, ice, and LOTS of water. It's a good kind of sore though. It makes me feel like I've done something. So anyway, I feel pretty good mentally, and physically I feel like I'm actually accomplishing something.

I need a tiger, cuz this stuff is AWESOME!!

On Friday I had my second workout. I was pretty pumped when I got in there. Debbie informed me that we were going to try bench press. I'd never done that before. Mostly because of fear of dropping the bar across my chest and breaking my rib. Anyway, before every workout I take a 300 meter run and stretch. After I finished my run I attempted my first bench press...with just the 45 lb bar...Suprisingly, it was a piece of cake! Debbie kept adding weight, and before I knew it I had lifted 121lbs!! I was so excited! I can't believe how strong I am starting this out, and I'm so excited that I'm going to get stronger. So, that was the easy part of the workout...

The funny thing about Crossfit is you only do a few exercises for short periods of time, but it is REALLY difficult. The rush of endorphins happens so quickly that you want to go back just to feel that crazy high again. I'm beginning to feel like a junkie and it's only my second workout. So here was my WOD (workout of the day):

As many times in 12 min
50 double ups
10 burpees
7 knee ups

Now, if you've ever used a jumprope before you know how difficult it can be. Thankfully I grew up jumping rope like crazy! The double ups are not easy! Everyone knows that burpees make a normal person want to punch themselves in the face, and knee ups (hanging from a pull-up bar and bringing knees to chest) are just murder. All in rapid succession. :-/ So, as Debbie starts the timer I start to feel a little emotional. I make it through two sets of the workout then all of a sudden I started thinking about mom. I mean, it's totally ridiculous, because most people would be thinking about how horrible their body feels. I kept seeing flashes of her face. Her smile. Her voice. Next thing I know I'm choking up. I hear a little echo of Debbie's voice, "good job Sarah." It's just a small sound in the back of my head because all I can think about is mom. Apparently there is crying in Crossfit. This is where the emotional cleansing begins...Anyway, at the end of the workout I had done 2 full sets + 50 double ups and 6 burpees. AND I think this really will work for my mental fitness too. I'm starting to deal with things. This is a step in the right direction. Finally.